If only you knew.

It’s clear that im invisible. They tell me I’m beautiful but I’ll never be as beautiful as you. I’m just the one off in the distance. The one everyone knows as just your sister. The shy sweet one that no one cares to notice. But why should they once they see you? You have everything to offer and more. All I have is myself. And that’s no longer good enough. But I have no one else to be. You’ve even taken who I am and twisted it into something I’m not. How you’ve done this I’m not quite sure. But you’ve done it well. you’ve tricked everyone into your innocent ways. But you haven’t fooled me by acting completely oblivious. You know exactly what you’re doing. And you haven’t failed once. You’ll carry on with this act for as long as it will go. No one will ever be able to see through you. Your disguise is too good for any human eye. They’re all too blinded by the outside to see the inside. The one thing about this though is that you’ll never be satisfied with just one. You can’t stand to be left alone with only one, let alone none. You have to have you’re options open at all times. Cause once one leaves, you’ll be dying for the attention from the next. That’s what you do. You feast off of the attention from others. It’s what fuels you. What keeps you alive. You’ve always been good at this I will admit. I’ve never cared to be noticed. I’ve never been so desperate for attention. I couldn’t get it even if I tried. Cause you were always there first. You would always take the credit. You still do. I tell you my ideas and you speak them to the world as if you came up with them yourself. And I’m not one to make a big deal out of these things. It’s easy for me to just rub it off and forget. But now it’s gone to far. You’ve completely forgotten me. You don’t give a crap about anything I’m feeling. You never really have. It’s always been just about you. But I hope you’re happy. You’re beautiful and I love you so much. I really do. I’ll be okay. I can make it on my own. But if for some reason I don’t, just know that you’ve been that best little sister a girl could ever ask for.